On the 12th Day of Freedom, My True Love Gave to Me

My true love didn't really give me anything but a phone call today, but that's pretty normal. It's hump day (wednesday), and I'd like to be humping along like a rabit ---either with her or with myself, but I can't really do either.

Well, I suppose I could be humping along with myself but it's just not the same without porn. I still masturbate, but not as often. Though this morning --every time I woke up to hit the snooze button (3 times)-- I couldn't help but notice a rock-hard stallion under the sheets, it didn't prompt me to masturbate until cumming. I still grabbed it for pleasure, but I didn't want to be late late for work.

I used to stop by my old house on my lunch breaks sometime to grab a quick bite and swing a quickie to make the day better, but I've yet to do that without porn. I used to masturbate nightly before bed (it makes falling asleep much easier for an insomniac), but I haven't done it that regularly since quitting cold turkey.

I might take up exercising again if I feel stressed more. I dunno, I have two-hour periods of stress/stresslessness. I'll be really relaxed for a little while, then I'll feel really stressed. And then I'll be relaxed, and then be stressed. I don't get it. Maybe it's work, but I think it's also not getting in all the hanky panky (handy dandy or otherwise) that I'm used to. This would be so much easier if my girlfriend lived anywhere in a 50mi radius. I'd drive a half hour everyday easy just to see her and spend time with her (daily or multi-daily sexual releases with her ease my mind and body so much... she is ask skillful as they cum, satisfaction guaranteed).

Not having her around doesn't make this any easier...

Arg...