Craving while tired

I'm tired. Stressed. And craving. Baaad. I just got home from work and I want some, now. Just to comfort me. Something familiar that I have control over. I'm hungry but I'd rather have some quality porn. Video preferably

Just saw some music videos on TV. They never use to do anything for me (I found them dumb, pointless, and practically worthless). Now, I'm glued to the TV hoping to catch a glimpse of something I like.

My minor problem getting it up was very shortlived (which I'm happy about), but now I'm on the other side of the fence. I'm oversexualizing everything on TV, everything around me, and I'm suffering through the thought that I'll always be like this. I think I remember why I originally started looking at porn on a very regular basis: I'm a very sexual person and it gave me a socially acceptable outlet (even though I hid it from everyone) for expressing my desires passively.

It allowed me to get past my 1-track mind. As long as I knew I could have porn whenever I got home, I didn't have to think about sex constantly. I didn't have to walk around with my dick popping out of my pants. I didn't have to fantasize about the girl I met at the cash register, or the waitress at the restaurant. I didn't have to savor the cleavage in that girl's low cut blouse, or the fullness I can make out under her friend's pants. I didn't have to look just a little bit harder to make out that girl's nipples, or her cameltoe.

But now, sometimes it's all I can think about. Is this what other guy's are like all the time? No wonder why girl's think guys are pigs.