though internet porn isn't popularly accepted as generally causing harm to anyone (arguably there are some who benefit, and some who are taken advantage of ---but that's beyond the scope of this blog), i've decided to take an adventurous trip down the road of self-restraint as a personal exercise in self-awareness and growth: no more p0rn will be my mantra.

i've come to the gross realization that it devastates my long-term, committed relationship. That's not to say that it harms any and every relationship, but it does harm mine. It makes my girlfriend feel like shit and wastes countless hours of my time.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

minor success number 002

Every day is a minor success, but today after checking my email I type "porn" into my address bar. My favorite porn video site appeared in the drop-down menu.

All I had to do was press "enter" for a peek. I wasn't going to watch any videos, just look at the listings.... But I knew that I'd never be able "just to look at the listings" and that I'd be watching videos and jacking off.

So I typed in my blog address and thankfully had a comment. I read it, and posted a response/entry. I think this journal is helping. Even in the little moments of weakness.

I deleted my history so it wouldn't show up in my address bar again.

This is so stupid. Whats the harm of a little porn!? I'm angry and frustrated for not being able to watch any.
Posted by no more p0rn at 4:46 AM

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